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| Dear God,
I have too many thoughts in my mind so I couldn't sleep. First day of Summer Class starts tomorrow and I am as ready as I can be. I met up with my old friend from HS and his group of friends from college, and dear God are they crazy. We went to an all American-Restaurant on Hollywood Blvd. I spent only $5. It was such a new innovation for me. I come to you this Summer once more for guidance. Forgive me for I have been away from you for so long. You do understand that I had to do lots of homework and mingling over this past three quarters, and that is why I have neglected you for so long. I found my old alarm clock today. The one that I have always used since middle school. It brought back some memories. I need to change my sleeping pattern i know, it will take time. I will be studying for the GRE exam this summer. God, I ask that you will support me and give me strength to conquer this monstrous injustice. You once told me, " The dream that you don't fight for will come back and haunt you." I still love music God, I still love singing. I will do my best to commit myself to this Festival Choir this Aug. This year will be my last chance to go. I pray that you will allow me the opportunity to achieve this goal. Now I lay myself to sleep, I pray to the Lord my soul to keep.
Sincerely,
Jaime Sok | | |
| Por ti,
estaba manejado cuando estaba piensando de ti. Hoy, fui a tocar piano con mis amigo de Stevenson. Se llama John. Papa de El es una Reverence de una Iglecias de Pasadena. Le gusta muchachas. Mi clase esta empesado en tres dias. John y yo fuimos a Denny's cerca de Rosemead Blvd. Hablamos de su Papa y sus trabajo. John asked " how come you are you so free?" I explained that I always had to fight for what I do, like going to that Arts High School. Mom didn't agree, but i fought for it and I won. John never fought for what he wanted, he had given up since 15. He looked at me in the eyes and smile. " I envy you, " he said. The good thing was, now Mom will always expect me to rebel against her all the time, it's like she's used to it. Over time, she lets go. Now, she never mentions about where or what kind of graduate school I should apply to. I bought myself a GRE prep book from Kaplan. Please Kaplan I gave you $39 and now you give me a good good score ok? Back at home again makes me feel calm and relaxed. I guess I don't have to think about finals and such, maybe that's why. Psychology class will start soon next week. I am looking forward to it. Until then, good night dear, and I shall see you in my dreams.
Sincerely,
San Sok | | |
| Got some GRE books. On my way to Grad school.
still, pray for me.
Sincerely,
San | | |
| 'God on high, hear my prayers," I have come to thy once more for shelter. I am back to you once more. Tis' time for me to begin my journey of this extremely exciting summer that you have placed before me. I do not know if I am ready for thy commands and challenges, however, I shall say that I will accept and go through this summer to the best of my ability. I do miss him God, I really do. Bring him home, bring him back to me. I know I should have done something differently at the time I had him. Dear God, but how could you blame me for not knowing what was the best way and what was not? I was too young then, and I still am now. I shall be an RA next Fall and I do not think I am ready for it God. I need all the help and guidance from you. It was Andy's graduation ceremony today and I was there. I was there God, I was and full heartedly. Now, Mommy has two sons who attend University of California schools. We went to dinner for the occasion and we had lobsters. My favorite kind of seafood! God, I ask that Mommy and Daddy will stay healthy and that everyone in the family is doing well. Until then, I promise I will write more this summer. In your name I pray, Amen!
P.S I sincerely thank you again for your help.
Goodnight,
San. | | |
| Qing ai te,
I lost it. I know I need to find
it again, I know it's somewhere inside me. I just haven't looked hard
enough. Maybe Stevenson people are weird, and I am the normal
one, or maybe it is the other way around. Maybe I belong at
Porter instead. I know I have made this choice, thus I must stick
with it. But why did I lose the strength to find that "courage" ? 
Daddy called. "San, your growing up now, Daddy knows that you will take
academics seriously, and one day you will make Daddy proud." I
miss those words, I miss those words that make me feel strong and that
they force me to go the extra miles just to make him feel happy.
Writing is not hard, I just didn't try hard enough. I am sorry
Writing One, I am sorry that I haven't had time to care for you as I
promised I would. But now I know what I needed to do, and I will start
doing it very soon. This empty feeling in my heart will be filled
with something one day and I know my parents will always be supportive
as they always have been. Hold my hand, and lead me to a new
door, I will follow you.
lonely Night,
San Sok
P.S. I also miss LA, I hope this Thangsgiving get-a-way weekend will rejuvenate my soul.
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